I'm a"Course in Miracles" student, facilitator.This morning I read"this is a course in how to know your Self.You have taught what you are,but have not let what you are teach you.....Yet within you is everything you taught. Comments?

Beautiful,rainy day. Watched some Olympics last night. I have such mixed emotions about the whole situation.Taking water from farmers,leveling shacks that families live in,not allowing someone to sing.How it looks,howit looks,how it looks

Ah hah! my name

I am a white girl,actually I'm not a girl, well maybe I am still. Anyway I was adopted into the Lakota tribe as the result of a marriage, and the keeping of a commitment to dance in the most sacred of the Lakota ceremonies "Sundance". I received an Indian name.In Lakota its "Tasina wan wigmuka wiyan" In english it's "Rainbow shawl woman". I was told that I received this name because I did,"bring the rainbow. O.k. now back up 43 yrs to when I was 10 ish. I was raised by a single mom.My brother and I were left with babysitters during summer vacation,cuz mom worked. It was during this time that I decided to become "commander" of my life ,and everyone elses,when I was almost raped,and according to my 10 yr old perception ,my 18 mo. younger, hellian brother was almost killed by the baby sitter,and there was no one around to keep us safe,but my old deaf aunt and babysitters who were only interested in their boy friends.What a damn hard job to keep up. But I did, for the next 43yrs. I ,as commander made sure nothing bad ever happened to any one I loved, and all animals that crossed my path. I rescued my sons,friends etc. Oh the damage I unknowingly did. I played "god" not allowing everyone their own choices, and consequences,all in protections name.Now all the while I was employed as "commander" I was "seeking' Since I was 10 i yearned for the something else that was out there.So for 43 yrs my search has taken me to Some incredible places ,courses of study,participation in incredible ceremonies(life changing).Little by little this calm peace has crept in, and of course out.The peace leaves when I'm the commander.It returns when I TRUST that "something else out there" which is not only out there ,but inside and every where,in all life.So yesterdayI was giving a hair cut(my day job) and my client wanted to know what I had done on my weekend. I told him I went and did some Reiki( energy healing) on a horse, and that I was surrounded by three other horses while I was doing it. He asked if I was afraid, standing in the middle of them all, and I said "no" animals tend to calm down when I'm around and he said" so do your clients..BINGO.my name!!!!!When I am just "BEING" that BEING that we all are ,I bring the rainbow.